Out of Words

what am i supposed to act like...!

2010-01-24T10:48:00.000-08:00

I couldnt sleep at night...so i got up and started to write...anhting which came to my mind...!

I am having a bit of an issue here...my bf is becoming a real pain and is insensitive, demanding, agitated and a total control-freak and i have no shame in sayin, so am I. What should i do - Today i told him that i cant handle this anymore. You know what the problem is - He thinks he is right in whatever he does and has all the bloody rights in the world t make me do things the way he wants them or thinks how they should be done......Some times he freaks me out!

I have been waiting all evening for him to call me apologize but to no surprise he has'nt. He can even bet like 1 lac rupee on Whose gonna call first and that would obviously be me but not this time. This time i have to sort things out because if i bend and i dont then he's probably going to take advantage of the fact...........................................................!

Sometimes i feel wht the fuck have i gotten myself into.... See he's not a very groomed and self-conscious person, i mean he is when he want to be. And very Smart and bright and ofcourse cute. And as far as i know there is a great dearth of smart guy, like intelligent guys around. and in my list him being smart fetches him more point than him being all prim and proper.

I feel that i should just try hard and focus on what i want in life....becoz as far as i think he was nevr serious abt me and nor did he love me or anything. But there is a bond which binds me to him which i cant resist--------------- but i will now no matter what.

Because if i dont go through this now i will have to sometime in the future and then it will hurt even more...!

My New Recipe

2008-12-05T01:16:00.000-08:00

Today i tried making Vinegar Onion. Well its just so mouth watering. Its usually served with paneer-tikka's and Mughlai food.

I would be posting my recipes of whatever i try new at home.

Storage upto 1 month : refrigerated.
Cooking Time : 5 mins.
Preparation Time : 5 mins.

Makes 1 1/2 cups.

Ingredients

	1 cup onions, sliced
	4 to 5 green chillies, slit
	½ cup white vinegar
	½ cup (100 grams) sugar
	1 teaspoon salt

Method

Combine all the ingredients in a pan, cover and cook till the sugar has dissolved, stirring occasionally.

Allow it to cool completely. Pour the mixture into a sterilised glass jar and store refrigerated for upto 1 month.

Can be served with just anything. I love the taste !!

What we want and what we get!

2008-12-03T21:19:00.000-08:00

i little while back i lost my mother-everything came to a standstill. I became unaware of the events occurring around me for a while. Being very close to her i always knew what she was felt in her last days and what she wanted and when. It was a huge loss for me.

Well recently while clearing her stuff up in the cupboard and thinking of what should be passed over to whom a thought struk me. I thought all our lives we keep wanting things-sometimes this when we get this we want that.

My mother was very fond of new clothes and in her cupboard i could see this huge variety of very expensive salwar kameez some in silk some in crape and i dont know what all. And all her life she was damn particular and choosy as to what to buy and from where. She would keep them all stacked up in her cupboard neatly ironed and lined waiting for the right occasion.

As we open the newspaper evry morning we see all disputes some between a father and a son, some brothers on land, property, money - but what so we finally take??? NOTHING!

I know even after writing this whole thing i might end up in a petty fight with a friend. But all i realised is that we should'nt waste our lives cribbing about what we didnt get-instead focus on what is our hands presently.

Life beautiful yet so unpredictible

2008-12-03T20:52:00.000-08:00

In the last few days all the countries media has been diverted towards the Mumbai terrorist attack... what we all do is look at it criticize the government and get back to our work-We call that spirit of our country. But to look at it the other way one gets to know that we actually don't have a choice.

Even the people who have suffered personal losses might have their lives slowed down for a while but ultimately they have to go out in the barbarous world waiting to gulp in more lives. About 200 people were killed - about the same number of families mourning.

Well a little before these blast i lost my mother to a long battle with cancer and i very well reallised how difficult it is to continue living sans our loved ones, which i never did before. Atleast we knew what was coming-everyone in my family even my mother but think of those people and their family who didnt have the slightest idea of what lied ahead.